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Post by DeviL princess on Nov 30, 2004 17:58:12 GMT 6
Sometimes, and maybe this will sound a bit strange, when I feel nauseated, and I have been that way for awhile, I will get so frustrated, and I will start thinking to myself "God, I want to throw up. I just want to do it." And then I start thinking that if I do, all my fears, my anger, confusion, pain, frustration...all of that will just come up with it. I will just get rid of all the bad things inside of me if I just let myself go, let myself vomit. In those brief moments, and they don't happen too often, it's almost as if I am daring myself to throw up...it's a very fierce, passionate feeling. Anyway, never been brave enough to just let go and be sick, but I was wondering if it's just me that has these weird moments.
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Post by Finlip on Dec 1, 2004 12:51:24 GMT 6
...I start thinking that if I do, all my fears, my anger, confusion, pain, frustration... ...it's a very fierce, passionate feeling. ...let go and be sick... Fears, anger, confusion, pain, and frustration. Can you get rid of all of them by vomiting? Fierce and passionate feeling. Explain that please. Will you be sick once you let go? This was one of the most difficult posts to understand. Please help me with some explanations. I do not remember any feeling of nausea. Sometimes part of what I eat comes back to my mouth, but just a little bit. This hasn't happened for a while. I can only remember one occasion about ten years ago when I really vomitted. A few friends have done it after drinking. So far, I have never had to. I don't drink either.
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Post by whitepepper on Dec 1, 2004 17:21:27 GMT 6
You are bulimic, aren't you devil princess?
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Post by Finlip on Dec 1, 2004 17:27:26 GMT 6
You are bulimic, aren't you devil princess? A bulimic!
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Post by DeviL princess on Dec 2, 2004 9:28:05 GMT 6
You are bulimic, aren't you devil princess? Umm.. you mean bulimia? Yup there are many reasons .....
Anup: There are times that I think "I can just make myself be sick, everything will come out with it and I will think not be this way anymore!" It's like in the one single act, I will finally let go and all of my anxieties will just be flushed. Then there's the rational part of me that knows this (phobia)is more than just getting sick, this is about control, and if I give up control, it will manifest in some other part of my life.
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